The Fluttering of a Little Heart…

This past Wednesday Jen and I went to have the first ultra-sound done…another step in the journey of this pregnancy…I mention the journey because I want to go back to where this one started for me…well not started, but close to it…

The morning that we were leaving for our second round of Field Orientation in Holland Jen says to me, “I think that you need to go downstairs (to our pharmacy) and get a pregnancy test.” I was thinking…we are nearly broke right now (tight month due to special expenses) and we can’t afford that! But I scrapped together 16€ of change and went down to get them. After she took the test the result came back very quickly! She was pregnant! After she got in the shower I sat in our red little chair holding the test. I realized that my hands were shaking! I was both excited and nervous.

For the next 8 or so weeks we were hit head on with sickness…not fun. I was wondering what the heck was happening to my normally active wife! She never knew what she wanted to eat and even when she did decide her body would change her mind within minutes! It was unlike I had ever seen her.

So on Wednesday we had our ultra sound. The first image on the screen made my heart start beating faster…The sickness, the tiredness, the test…it was all real. Up until this point this life had been visually represented by a plus sign, but now it was real and moving all around in front of me. We could see the spinal chord, the head, the arms and legs, and then…the heart. When I saw it’s little heart fluttering away I immediately had tears in my eyes. It beat so fast! I immediately knew that I loved this little life…it was unlike anything else I had ever experienced…and I think that this is still just the beginning of the journey…